I myself remember very little of that day. I was 11 years old. I have a vague and cloudy memory of being wheeled down the hospital hall on a gurney by several doctors whose lab coats fluttered out behind them like the capes of super heroes. I know I was close to lapsing into a diabetic coma. I guess I was in ICU for a few days. I remember later being in a room with a girl who loved to watch Benny Hill - but the English humor was lost on me. I suppose I learned to give injections on an orange but I actually don't remember doing that. I do remember seeing the nurses bring a cake to another patient who was celebrating her birthday - and I told them that I couldn't have cake on my birthdays anymore. (They assured me that I could, but ONLY on my birthday.)
Once home, I remember testing for sugar in my urine with little tablets that fizzed hotly in a test tube. I remember cloudy insulin that got rolled in my mother's palm before it was mixed with clear insulin in my syringe. I remember having my exchange list and meal plans secured to the side of the fridge with bright magnets. I remember doing my injections on my own . . . . until the day I froze up and couldn't do them. My mom had to inject me for months and months before I built up the courage to do them myself again. I remember shaving off little slivers of luscious banana cake when no one was looking and eating them quickly before anyone saw. Sometimes I shaved off too many slivers and my brother would get blamed for eating all of the cake. I also remember thinking I wouldn't live more than 15 more years. And that by that time I'd be full of complications.
But here I am, 30 years later. Give or take a day or two. I'm very sad that I'll never know when my real Diaversary is. I so wish I knew my exact diagnosis date. But in the grand scheme of things, I guess it's not really important. What is important is how far we've come in 30 years. Exchanges and R and NPH have been swapped for carb counts and fast acting insulin. Cake is no longer taboo on every day except my birthday. The urine test tubes were replaced by finger sticks and my CGM. I punch buttons on my insulin pump instead of injecting with syringes. And my only complication so far is a small leaky vessel (or two) in my eye.
Happy Diaversary to Me? Yes. Yes indeed.