Today is Pete’s last day of work. Although he was notified of his lay-off two weeks ago, it still seems a bit unreal. And scary. As of today, we are both jobless. And I’ve never felt so frightened in my life.
Everyone has tough financial times during their life. (Okay, maybe not EVERYONE, but everyone I know.) But even when I’ve had to keep a close eye on my budget, I’ve never worried about my diabetes supplies and my insurance. I’ve been very lucky and I always knew I could get what I need to stay alive and healthy. Now the tide has changed. It feels a bit like my luck has run out. Although we will keep our insurance until the end of March, I’ve already begun to ration supplies. I’m wearing my pump sites one day longer. I’m stretching my sensors as long as I can. I’m trying to save now, because if we need to go on COBRA in April, the premium will cost a fortune.
I’m also worried about the coverage we will get once we find jobs and have a new insurance to deal with. Will I still be able to see my awesome endo? Will my CGM be covered? Will I get as many test strips as I need? Or will I have to fight for coverage on my supplies? And what will our new co-pays be like?
I know I’m not the first one who has been in the situation. I know Pete and I will get through this. I know it will all work out . . . somehow.
But for now, I feel like I’m adrift on a sea of uncertainty . . . waiting to see when the tide will come in and where it will take me. And that is a very scary place to be.