I believe in telling the truth. Honesty is the best policy and all that. Even little white lies can cause a lot of trouble. So I was surprised to realize that my pants are, in fact, ready to burst into flames.
It seems I tell lies on a regular basis. Every day I lie about what it is like to live with diabetes. Sometimes I wonder exactly who I’m lying to - the world in general or myself? Either way, here are the most popular items on my Liar’s List.
- It doesn’t hurt. This is the lie I tell about finger sticks and insertion sets. The truth? Lancing my finger and squeezing blood out does hurt. Duh! So does the needle that plunges into me during a site change. Um, of course! But I guess I’m so used to it and so desensitized by it that the pain usually doesn’t register or I just don’t acknowledge it.
- My CGM is awesome. Don’t misunderstand. I do love having a CGM. As soon as a sensor expires, I put in a new one. The information it gives is so helpful. But the truth? The technology still has a long way to go. At times the readings are way off. The weak signal errors drive me batty. Some day CGMs will be awesome, but right now they are just better than nothing.
- Diabetes can be a pain sometimes, but it’s not that bad. You say this all the time too, don’t you? When people give you that pity face when they find out you have diabetes? The truth? Diabetes is a twenty-four hour a day, seven day a week, no time off for good behavior life sentence that I put a ton of time and energy into managing. Yes, I can manage it, but it sure isn’t as easy as I may make it sound.
- I love having a pump. I love my husband. I love my cat. I wouldn't ever trade them for anything in the world. But my pump? Well, making the decision to start pumping was absolutely the right one for me. My diabetes control has gotten so much better since I attached myself to that little purple gadget I carry everywhere. But would I trade my pump for a working pancreas? You bet I would. That's not love - it’s just making the best of the options I do have.
- I can eat anything I want as long as I punch the carbs into my pump. Ah, my favorite. Of course, this one isn’t exactly a lie. But a more truthful statement?
I can eat anything I want as long as I punch the carbs into my pump - but some foods will make me spike up too high anyway - well, most of the time they will - unless they make my blood sugar crash, which might happen at random - and some foods are just too hard to figure out the correct bolus for so I just don’t bother eating them - although some are worth eating once in a while even if I spike up some because I love them so and I can correct my high blood sugar back down without feeling too crappy - and really I can go on and on for days trying to explain to you the intricacies of food choices and how to bolus for them and all of the factors that can throw everything off but I see you are starting to doze off already so I won’t even go there . . . .
How about you? What is on your Liars List?