Lately I've just been feeling . . . tired. Tired of dealing with the lows. Tired of counting each and every carb. Tired of attempting to time out my dosing and meals. Tired of the endless finger-sticks. Tired of sticking infusion sets and CGM sensors into my body. Tired of the itchy red splotches they leave behind.
Basically, I just feel . . . done.
I know, I know. Having a bad attitude is fruitless. Staying positive is important. Diabetes isn't going anywhere. I need to keep doing these things, no matter how tired of them I may feel. And I AM doing these things. My diabetes management hasn't slipped, even if my attitude has.
I'll keep going. I don't have a choice, so I'll do what I have to. I won't surrender. I can't wave that white flag. But sometimes . . . sometimes I just get sick of it all. And I wonder if I'm the only one who feels this way.