Good to be away, good to be home.

Well, vacation is officially over. We spend a fun week in Colonial Williamsburg for a Family Reunion with my mother's side of the family. I was sure I had gotten a shot of the 25ish of us all posing together, but I guess my camera was hidden away when the picture was taken. Hopefully some relatives will upload their copies soon! The best I can do is a picture of me and my brother at Jamestown, with my aunt and uncle in the back.


How can you tell that's me, and that we are related? Why, by the way we are both desperately trying to ignore the camera (and Pea) in the hopes of not getting our picture taken!! Our conversation probably went something like this:
"Is he gone yet?"
"Nope, still there."
"Well for goodness sake, don't look - and certainly don't smile!"
"Why doesn't he just go take a shot of the scenery?"

As great as vacation is, it's good to be home. Am I the only one who loves to go away, but maybe loves to come home even more? It's always so nice to be back in my own house, sleeping in my own bed and using my own clean bathroom where everything is accessible and not stuffed in a travel case. If it weren't for the empty fridge and piles of dirty laundry, coming home just might be perfect.

Another nice thing about coming home is cooking my meals own again. Now, I love a good meal out as much as the next person, but it's always a bit of a challenge. Trying to resist the less-healthy menu options (and in my case, usually ordering them anyway), playing Guess the Carb Count, and punching in S.W.A.G. boluses with the hopes of covering the mystery carbs just right. After a full week of eating every meal this way, it feels good to come back home to food whose carb count I am 100% sure of.

But as vacations go, things went pretty smoothly Diabetes-Wise. Well, okay, I did get my first ever non-delivery message at breakfast on Monday, which caused a near freak-out. But I caught it when my blood sugar was only in the low 200's, and since I had put in a new site a few hours earlier I knew to just change it out. By mid-morning I was back where I should be. Oh, and there was the night I accidentally gave my site a good whack. It seemed fine, but I woke up a 2 am in the high 200's. Not normal for me. Again, I changed out the site, stayed up for an hour to make sure my blood sugar was heading back down, and woke for good at 7 am with a reading of 72. Crisis averted. The very hot weather and all of the walking we did while sight seeing even afforded me a few treats along the way. (Mmm, fudge, how I've missed you!) All in all, not a bad vacation.

But it's still good to be home.

Off schedule

It seems I'm running a bit behind these days. My brother is here from Colorado for the first time in a few years. Pea is officially on vacation this week. And it's time for some fun. I had hoped to pre-write a few posts to keep things rolling on the blog while I'm off "playing" - but I seem to have run out of time.

I hate when my schedule is off. I love having a routine and sticking to it. I know this is going to be a very fun week, but vacations are always hard too. Different routines. Different exercise. Different food. And now, trying to navigate through it all with my pump.

I think I'll be okay though. The pump is different, and I'm still adjusting, but it's already made things much MUCH easier. And my vacation reading? Pumping Insulin.

What, other people prefer "fluff" books when they are on vacation? Oh well, once a geek, always a geek!!

Enjoy your week and I'll see you after my vacation!

Did the Sugar Fairy visit me while I slept?

A few mornings ago, I awoke a little after 6:00 to use the bathroom. This is a normal routine for me. I rarely need to make a bathroom run during the night, but by 6 or 6:30 my bladder has had enough.

I noticed I was more thirsty than usual, but wasn't too worried. I had cooked some home-made Chicken Tortilla Soup for dinner the night before and figured maybe it was a bit heavy on the salt. Surely that was the cause for my thirst, and not a visit from the Sugar Fairy.

But as I washed my hands, I felt something smacking against my shins. I looked down, horrified to find it was the end of my tubing. I was even more horrified when I couldn't get the "quick disconnect" to connect back into my infusion set.

I woke up Sweetpea (my husband, who hates to get up early) and asked him to help me connect the tubing, but he couldn't get it to snap back in either. Best I can tell, I must have rolled over on the infusion set in the night and smooshed it but good. (It was toward the back of my hip.) But what time did this happen? With an impending sense of doom, I tested my blood sugar . . .

3 . . . .

2 . . . .

1 . . . .

327!!!!!!!!

In retrospect, 327 wasn't THAT bad. It could have been much, much worse. It could have been "off the meter". But, as a newbie pumper in the midst of my first equipment malfunction, I promptly freaked out and cried to Pea that I didn't want to end up in the hospital with The Big K.

Thank goodness for Sweetpea. He told me to calm down, and began to gather my supplies from the dresser drawer. In the mean time, I took an injection to adjust. Within a few minutes or so, a new set was safely in place. And by mid-morning, my blood sugar was a nice (if a bit low) 71.

All in all, I was very lucky to catch it pretty quickly. But I'm still a bit nervous each night, wondering what exactly happened and if it will happen again. Has anything like this ever happened to you? (I use the Minimed Quick-Set.)

This . . . is . . . Jeopardy!!!!

For $100, the reason construction hasn't begun on a building.
"What is a site problem?"
Correct!!

For $200, why little Suzie can't see the blackboard in her classroom.
"What are sight problems?"
Correct!!

For $300, it is why that web-page just won't load.
"What are site problems?"
You are on a roll!!

And for $400, the probable cause of those floopy blood sugar readings in my last post?
(can you see where this is going?) "WHAT IS A SITE PROBLEM'?
CORRECT!!!

That's right. When I changed my infusion set on Thursday afternoon, I discovered what I think was the problem. As a new pumper, I'm still very much in the learning phase, but it was quite obvious something was wrong. I snapped a picture, but I'm not sure how much you can see.


If you look closely, above the red mark where the cannula was there is a small blister type thingie. I'm not sure if it had insulin or puss (ick) or just air inside, but I've never seen anything like that before when I remove a site. So, along with the dozens of other reasons my blood sugars may have been "off", we can add this one.

For now, I'll just focus on the wise words of my new blog-friend and "give myself a break". Things won't ever be perfect all the time, so we just do what we can and move forward.

I knew it . . . .

Remember in my last post, where I said I shouldn't mention that my blood sugars have been great because I'd probably jinx myself and be plagued by high readings? Yeah . . . . I was right. I should have kept my big mouth shut!


A random sample of how my daily blood sugars look goes something like this:

67 96 90 65 115 124 130 87 90

Pretty good, huh???? But, after jinxing myself on Tuesday, yesterday looked like this:

193 129 195 67 90 160 167 178
and 251
(the 251 is at 2:43 am, which is technically today not yesterday, but I count it as yesterday because I don't start my day at 2:43 am)

Okay, okay, I know things are bound to go hay-wire sometimes. And the bad readings are probably NOT due to the fact that I posted about good blood sugars for all the world to see - thus banishing myself to a Diabetes Smack-Down via bad readings.

The frustrating thing, as I'm sure you all can guess, is that I have no clue why my blood sugars are suddenly soaring (besides the whole jinx thing). Maybe I've been a bit less active due to the hot and humid weather we've been having - but we had our weekly ballroom dancing lesson last night, and my overnights always rock after that. (So why a 251?????) I don't feel any more stressed out than I usually do (I can always find SOMETHING to stress over, but nothing new there). And it isn't the right time of month for the hormone roller-coaster.

Rather than dwell (and stress) over it too much, today I'll be a little more active, drink a lot more water (which I've been slacking off on lately) and hope my Blood Sugar Jinx wears off soon! I'll also test a few extra times. Gee, wouldn't a CGM really come in handy right now???

REQUEST FOR CGMS: DENIED BY INSURANCE

As I mentioned in my last post, Gina has had the wonderful idea that we all raise our voices today and let the insurance companies know how much we need them to approve requests for CGMs.


I've been on my pump for about 2 1/2 months. Before I took the plunge, I couldn't see how the "new" pump technology could really help me any more than taking injections. After all, both have the same end result - getting insulin into my body. Now, as a pumper, I can attest to how much better this little piece of technology is. My blood sugars have never been better (although I hate to say that for fear of jinxing myself and ending up with a boat-load of highs - I think it will take a while before I get more confident that control this good can last). Pumping has also made my life much easier in ways I never could have imagined.

So what does that have to do with Continuous Glucose Monitors? Well, like the pump, in the not so distant past I had no desire to try a CGMS. I figured why mess with what I know - finger sticks? How could a CGMS be any better, especially since the technology is new and all the kinks have not been worked out yet?

Well, my views on CGM have changed in the last 2 1/2 months as well. I can see how, even if right now they are not always 100% accurate, a CGM can help control immensely. They help spot trends and pinpoint times of the day when a basal tweak may be necessary. They work hard in the over-night hours, when I'd be asleep and less likely to catch a low - ready to sound the alarm if my blood sugar starts to crash. I am sure a CGMS would make my life easier in ways I could never have imagined - just like my pump. So I am very upset to know that if my doctor agrees with me that I am ready to start on one, chances are good the the insurance company will jinx it.

I have had an important point ingrained into me over and over - the most important thing a diabetic can do to stay healthy is to check blood sugar often and keep it under control. This is the best way to fend off complications and live a long and healthy life. Yes, the cost of a CGMS is not small - but the insurance companies need to understand that the costs are much smaller than the cost of managing and treating diabetes complications. And on a personal level. the costs are nothing compared to the improved quality of life a CGMS can bring me.

I did not ask for this disease. It's something I was dealt, and I live with it every day and work constantly to manage it the best I can.

I did not ask for this disease. But you can bet I'm ready to ask for anything that will help me manage it. Don't deny me that right.

REQUEST FOR CGMS: DENIED BY INSURANCE

Gina over at Diabetes Talkfest has declared July 1st as Continuous Glucose Monitor System Denial Day. I personally have not been denied the CGMS . . . . but that is partly because I haven't tried to get coverage for one yet. The way things seem to be going, once my doctor and I decide I am ready to use one, chances are very good the insurance company will say it's a no go.

This is completely unacceptable! Let's raise our voices against the frustration of being denied this new technology which can be crucial in helping us avoid complications! Join us on July 1st when we send a message to the insurance companies!



To learn how to get your voice heard, go here.

High Expectations . . . .

So, yesterday was my second follow-up visit with my endo after going on the pump in mid-April. It was also time for my next A1C test. For once, I was excited about this. When last tested, in February, I was at 6.8. I couldn't wait to see what the lab had to say this time. Maybe I would finally have fallen below 6.5!!!

Well, I was quite disappointed when the doctor told me my A1C came back at . . . . 6.7. I only went down one lousy 10th of a point!

However, my endo was quite pleased. According to him, many people find their A1C goes up right after switching to the pump - due to all of the adjustments and the learning process and getting everything set. He was happy to see me actually being 1/10th of a point lower.

I admitted to him that as much as I love the pump, I notice it has caused me to put even more pressure on myself to be perfect. I expect each and every reading to be in the 80 - 120 range, and am disappointed in myself when they aren't. He reminded me that everything is NEVER going to be perfect. That's just not realistic. We can make them better than they were, but we can't make them PERFECT.

I left his office with praise from him and a vote of confidence that I will do just great in the three months until my next appointment. He reminded me to call if things start to go wacky and we need to tweak again. But he is thrilled with how I've handled things so far.

So why do I still feel I should have done better? Do you put unreasonably high expectations on yourself too?