Tuesday, August 5, 2014

Exhausted . . . . .

I feel very lucky that the people in my life do their best to understand how tough diabetes can be sometimes and to support me when I need it.  But no matter how hard they try, I feel like they won’t ever really understand how exhausting diabetes can be - both physically and mentally.

Exhausted

Lately it’s been the physical exhaustion that has been hitting hard.  I don’t know if it’s because I’m getting older or what, but lows seem to sap my energy more than ever these days.  Especially those sticky lows that hang on even after being treated, and those very low lows that come in an aggressive whirlwind.  It gets harder and harder to shake them off and continue with my day, when all I want to do is curl up and nap.

Last night brought my exhaustion to a whole new level.  My low alarm woke me in the middle of the night and a finger stick confirmed its claim.  So I treated the low and settled in to go back to sleep . . . . but that was not happening.  My mind raced.  I was tired but just couldn’t fall asleep.  I went downstairs to find K.C. but she was too busy with whatever kittens do in the middle of the night to come cuddle with me.  I got my phone and read my entire Facebook feed, then tried to go back to sleep again but it still wasn’t happening.  I played stupid games on my phone.  I stared at the ceiling and listened to the air conditioner cycle on and off.  I listened to Pete snore.  It took several long  hours before I finally managed to fall back to sleep.  And this morning?  There is just not enough coffee in the world.

Sometimes I wish people on the outside understood just how physically exhausting diabetes can be.   And that my endo could write a prescription for naps!!

5 comments:

  1. I love/hate my CGM when it wakes me in the middle of the night. Sorry you couldn't get back to sleep and even the cat wouldn't play with you-

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  2. Going through this as a parent, I was up from 2-3:40, then hubby had to get up at 4, lovely. Sometimes I can get back to sleep quick but when there is a low to deal with it makes it much harder if you have to wait 15 minutes. I am a worrier and a list maker so once I start sleep becomes impossible. Not looking forward to a 3pm crash today. Caffeine please.

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  3. At least you didn't have your spouse calling down the stairs every five minutes to ask if you were okay. That's something I both love and loathe when it comes to nighttime lows. Hope you get some rest. Glad you're okay.

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  4. OMG you're so right, having diabetes is exhausting, and it's tough to explain to others. I'm a huge fan of using the Spoon Theory. Check it out at http://www.butyoudontlooksick.com/wpress/articles/written-by-christine/the-spoon-theory/ It's a good way to put exhaustion, pain and sickness from invisible illnesses in a way that people who don't experience it can actually understand. I wear a charm bracelet with a spoon on it that represents the one I keep hidden in my pocket.

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  5. TOTALLY! does that mean I'm old because these lows wreck me to death?
    we need more naps. More "okay to sleep ins"

    @StephenS that made me laugh. Mine does the same. They aren't even awake and I love/hate it too.

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