I thought I was just distracted and busy. Wrapped up in the kitchen remodel and the excitement and stress that goes along with it.
Then I thought I was just having a bit of writer’s block. Feeling like everything I could say I’ve already said before.
Then I felt guilty. What kind of diabetes blogger finds herself at a loss for words during Diabetes Awareness Month?
But the more I think about it, the more I realize that I’m just very tired. Tired of all the finger sticks. Tired of the carb counting. Tired of feeling too high and too low. Tired of waiting for better. Tired of learning to adjust to new devices and new treatments. Tired of the fight and the effort and the every single day of it all.
This will pass. It has to, because diabetes isn’t going anywhere. I’ll find my motivation again. I know I will. But today, still, I am just plain tired of diabetes.