Monday, November 18, 2013

Tired . . . .

I thought I was just distracted and busy.  Wrapped up in the kitchen remodel and the excitement and stress that goes along with it.

Then I thought I was just having a bit of writer’s block.  Feeling like everything I could say I’ve already said before.

Then I felt guilty.  What kind of diabetes blogger finds herself at a loss for words during Diabetes Awareness Month?

tiredBut the more I think about it, the more I realize that I’m just very tired.  Tired of all the finger sticks.  Tired of the carb counting.  Tired of feeling too high and too low.  Tired of waiting for better.  Tired of learning to adjust to new devices and new treatments.  Tired of the fight and the effort and the every single day of it all.

This will pass.  It has to, because diabetes isn’t going anywhere.  I’ll find my motivation again.  I know I will.  But today, still, I am just plain tired of diabetes.

16 comments:

  1. Right there with you! And add on that I'm tired of how difficult diabetes makes it for me to work on losing weight. I feel like I'm doing well, watching what I eat, beginning to exercise then WHAM! Lows hit me, I have to eat more than I want to, and I feel like I've failed and lost motivation yet again.

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    1. This. I've pretty much given up on the whole weight loss thing the past 5 months and my jeans are getting tighter and tighter. Le sighe.

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    2. You said it! I'm tired of endos telling me to exercise when it's just not that easy with diabetes.

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  2. I think it would be OK if you let other bloggers carry the load for a while. Enjoy your kitchen, your knitting, your adorable cat, and everything else wonderful in your life. Unfortunately you're right, diabetes isn't going anywhere.

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  3. Me too. But I'm glad that you are here when you can be as you are a wonderful inspiration to me (and I'm sure lots of people) to be more careful with my diabetes control.
    blessings
    ~*~

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  4. I know I don't really know, but I'm tired too. Way too many nights of only 2-3 hours of sleep. At least we have one another to lament with and cheer each other on!

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  5. so. sick. of
    can't finish senten---

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  6. I hear you Karen. Boy do I hear you. xoxo

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  7. As another blogger who's been awfully mum this diabetes awareness month, you're not alone and you can do it. <3

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  8. I have been feeling much the same. Last year I was very excited by Diabetes Awareness Month but this year I feel nothing. Hope things get to feeling better soon for you. Duchess and I sent good thoughts your way.

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  9. Sounds like you might not be the only one ;)

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  10. Karen, I completely understand. I think a lot of people are feeling the way you are right now. Maybe some of it has to do with the upcoming holiday season too. So it's okay to take it easy for a while. Diabetes will still be here. So will we, and we still think you're fantastic.

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  11. I'm kind of with you ... right now, I've kept my activity to a minimum because I have so much going on with work and it occurred to me that I began blogging about diabetes for over 8 years (my un-exciting first post can be seen at http://goo.gl/wqu3x0) and I realized the person who encouraged me to start doing this passed away roughly a year ago. The reality is I think people are clueless what CHRONIC means. It never goes away. No vacations. No breaks from it. It never, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever goes away. Its perfectly natural to want a break from talking about it all the time. I got married in June although it was kind of an extension of what I'd already been doing, we have the right not to think about this disease all the time. In fact, we need it. Give yourself all the time you need to forget about diabetes. No one will deny you deserve that much!

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  12. I think there's an epidemic happening; an epidemic of "enough!". I could have written this, and others too apparently. I also feel guilty for not participating in raising awareness this month. I'm just too damn aware and it's grating. I can't seem to find the muse inside me lately. You're right, this will pass for most of us. You rock, Karen. I <3 your commitment and dedication to, not only your own D care, but to spreading help across the DOC. Oh, and I am SO jealous of your new kitchen!! Your house looks wonderful and the decor is right up my alley. One day I will be posting pictures of our new kitchen. Off to buy some lottery tickets. ;-)

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  13. Aww hang in there Karen! Take time to enjoy the kitchen and your new pump!

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  14. I'm not so sure this "special" month is serving its purpose properly. I mean ... Do we really need a month where we can overwhelm ourselves even MORE with diabetes than usual? Just looking at the date of the previous comment... And then today's date... goes to show how I've has "enough" and am just taking it in small doses (DOC, that is. Insulin still flows as usual). It seems to be affecting a lot of us.

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