Tuesday, November 5, 2013

The Lows I Despise . . . . .

All lows are not created equal, and Sunday I experienced one of the lows I despise.  It was the kind that has me feeling absolutely terrified until my blood sugar comes back into range.

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The number wasn’t all that low, at least not for me.  I’m fairly hypo-unaware, so I usually don’t feel a 61 at all.  (In fact, I just did a finger stick before starting this post and saw a 65 and I feel just fine.  Don’t worry, I’m snacking on a Clif Bar and should be back up in no time.  /digression)  The 61 on Sunday, however, was not the least bit fun.  I was trying to get ready to go out for brunch (since we still don’t have a functioning kitchen) but this low was not having it.  I felt completely terrified.  I felt like any minute I was going to drop dead.  It was the worst feeling in the world.  I treated and then I treated a bit more.  Then I curled up on my bed in the fetal position.  I tried to be logical and tell myself I would be just fine, but my mind wouldn’t accept that fact.  I finally called out the window to Pete, who was in the driveway installing new wiper blades on his car, and asked him to come inside and sit with me.  I hate when diabetes makes me feel needy and weak.  Of course, by the time he finished up with his car and got inside, I felt just fine and was doing my hair so we could go eat.

November is Diabetes Awareness Month.  You should know that sometimes low blood sugars aren’t so bad.  I treat and move on with my day.  But sometimes, they feel completely terrifying.  Sometimes they leave me curled up in a ball waiting to die.  Luckily for me, lows like that are rare, but they happen.  And nobody should live like this.  We need a cure.

6 comments:

  1. Yuck! I hate those. I don't get it, sometimes a 61 does feel worse than say a 40. That always makes me wonder after the fact how accurate the meter or test strip was I used when I feel absolutely awful like that but I'm not as low as the number says.

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  2. Yep sometimes a not so low low will feel worse than a dangerous low. I think it has to do with how quickly I drop. A gradual drop is harder for me to detect but there are those times when it feels like my insulin finally kicks in and I come crashing down hard. Those are the worst.

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    1. My husband says that too, and since he's been wearing a Dexcom he has some data to back up that theory, it's the angle of the slope that causes the horrible feeling. A precipitous drop feels awful, a slow gradual decline is not so bad.

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  3. Jessi - good point! With the range in blood glucose values even in tests taken seconds apart, who knows if our numbers are right where the meter says they are. With a low (like the 36 I dropped to a few weeks back), that can make things even worse. I might have actually been at 56 (need food quick but I'm not panicking) or 26 (probably wouldn't have been awake to see the reading). I wish that strips and meters were always 100% accurate. Sure would make our lives a lot easier.

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  4. Karen, I think we can all identify with what you're saying. Those kind of lows are never easy. Glad everything turned out okay. Glad Pete was there to help.

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  5. I can absolutely tell the difference between the bad ones and the not so bad ones in both my daughter and my husband. There's definitely some kind of difference.

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