Do you get nervous or stressed when you have to go to your endo/doc appointment? Why or why not? Be honest.
So endo appointments should be a snap for me, right? OH MY GOSH, WRONG WRONG WRONG!!!! I get COMPLETELY stressed out. Seriously, I am a nervous wreck for at least a week before. I am a complete and utter crab (which is the G-rated version of what I’d really like to say I am) and I’m very lucky I have such a patient husband because I don’t know how he puts up with me.
Most of my stress comes from those stupid numbers on the paper . . . . my A1C and my meter reading. I feel like they need to be perfect. When I told my endo this, he said “Well, you do know that’s impossible, right.” Which is true . . . . diabetes makes it impossible for our numbers to be perfect all the time. Also, I think back to all those years when I couldn’t get my A1C down - I’d be so stressed before my appointments and I was sure if I could just get the number where it needs to be the stress would disappear. I was wrong. My A1C has been on goal for quite a while, but now before each appointment I stress that it has jumped back up. I also stress over the results of my other labs and over getting the news that complications have set it.
Honestly, I know it’s just in my personality to stress. In general, I stress the big things and the little things and everything in between. So I guess it makes sense that endo appointments are no different.
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