I seem to be in a bit of a funk. I’m not Depressed. (At least, I don’t think I am.) I’m just kind of indifferent. Everything seems like it will take more energy than it’s worth giving. Even my usual OCD-SparklyClean house is looking a bit dusty. It just doesn’t seem worth the effort to bother though.
This little funk has also seeped into my diabetes life. Again, I wouldn’t say I’m dealing with Diabetes Burnout. It’s more like Diabetes Indifference. Basically, I’m getting sloppy. I’m not testing nearly as often as I usually do. Instead of planning out a meal, I find myself SWAGing a bolus and then grazing until I think I’ve eaten enough carbs. If my CGM beeps, sometimes I’m treating without first confirming the reading with a finger stick. The batteries in my poor food scale are dead.
I guess what I really need is a Diabetes Reboot. I need to reload everything and start fresh. I need to get back to those good habits. I have started exercising (yet again) so that is at least one small step in the right direction. (Although the result has been lows in epic proportions that I can’t quite get a handle on - even when I measure precisely instead of SWAGing - but that is a topic for another post.) But the rest? Well, I wish it was as easy as rebooting my computer. I wish I had that magic button to power my D-Routine down and boot it back up, all zippy and ready to go.
Do you ever go through bouts of indifference? Ever feel like you need to reboot and start fresh? How do you find your motivation when you just don’t feel like investing the energy?