Last week I had enough. I found a five-week exercise and eating plan designed to take off two pounds per week. I threw myself into it and worked really really hard. By Saturday I was down two whole pounds. I just needed to maintain that until my Monday morning weigh in.
And then we went to a friend’s party Saturday night. There were martinis . . . . more martinis than I should have allowed myself. There was also Mexican food. I chose a little more wisely than I usually do - but not wisely enough.
Yesterday when I got on the scale for my official weigh in, I found I had only lost 6/10th of a pound last week. And I felt like a failure. I was disgusted with myself for not having willpower on Saturday night. I whined on Twitter . . . a lot.
And then Kelly reminded me of something important.
“Like diabetes, losing weight is about picking yourself up & starting all over again”The more I thought about it, the more I realized this was true. Diabetes knocks us down, beats us up and disappoints and disgusts us over and over again. But we pick ourselves up and start again - because that is the only option we have. Diabetes isn’t going anywhere, so we learn to deal with the hardships and just keep going. Why not take that lesson into other tough aspects of our lives?
And that’s just what I did. Okay, actually I cried a little. I moped around a lot. And, in the interest of full disclosure I must admit I ate some potato chips. But then . . . . I got back on that treadmill and walked for 45 minutes. I am determined to just keep going. This week I will lose 2 pounds. I will remember that I am already down more than 5 1/2 pounds since the end of February. And next time I go to a party, I will remember what didn’t work last Saturday and be better able to gauge just how much I can splurge without erasing all of my recent efforts.
Have you found yourself disappointed, disgusted or discouraged with something in your diabetes or non-diabetes life? Have you fell a little short of your goals? How did you pick yourself up and just keep going?