This month the DSMA blog carnival wants us to share “What do you consider to be your Diabetes Strengths? What do you think are your Diabetes Weaknesses?".
What am I weak at? Oh I can come up with a huge list of things!! What am I good at? Well, that’s a tough one. It’s so easy for me to see my flaws and so hard to give myself credit. Is that human nature, or is it just me? Anyway, mini-therapy session aside, I've narrowed my list down to one strength and one weakness.
I guess my Diabetes Strength is that I’m really good at pre-bolusing before eating. It helps me fend off those pesky post-meal spikes that fall right back into range after an hour or so. But it isn’t always easy. When I’m cooking my focus is on the timing of the food and it’s so easy to forget about that pre-bolus. When I’m starving it’s pretty hard to wait before I have a snack. At a restaurant it’s extra tricky to time insulin to when the waiter will serve my meal. But I really try and usually I do pretty well. My CGM high alarm is set at 170, and if I carefully pre-bolus I can often get through all my meals and snacks without it blaring that I’m high.
I narrowed down my long list of diabetes weaknesses to the one that I want to conquer the most. It’s the fact that I’m terrible at taking the emotion out of the blood glucose numbers. When that CGM does blare I curse myself for screwing up. A sticky high or low makes me feel like I’m being punished for doing something wrong. I would tell anyone with diabetes to look at out of range numbers as information they can act on, not as personal failures. But when those undesirable numbers flash on my own meter I forget my own advice. I’m weakest at blaming diabetes instead of blaming myself.
This post is my May entry in the DSMA Blog Carnival. If you’d like to participate too, you can get all of the information at http://diabetessocmed.com/2013/may-dsma-blog-carnival-3/.