Tuesday, May 5, 2009

When you world is in a downward spiral . . .


I think it's quite a well-known fact that exercise can help ease depression.  It sounds so easy, doesn't it?  Feeling down?  Go outside and take a walk.  Put on your favorite music and dance.  Do a little gardening.  You'll feel so much better.

But for me, when my world is in a downward spiral, it isn't as easy as it sounds.  Exercise can ease depression, yes.  But depression makes exercise become the last thing I want to do.  And when it gets really bad, I just can't force myself onto the treadmill.

In the past month, I exercised 28 days out of 30.  Last week, I only exercised one day.  I was so unhappy with myself that 20 minutes on the treadmill didn't seem worth the effort.  But then, skipping exercise become one more reason to be disappointed in myself.  The downward spiral continues and feeds off itself.

So, as part of my Fresh Start, it's time to get back to exercising.  As soon as I hit the publish button for this post, you'll find me on the treadmill.  And in that way, I've accomplished my small success for today.

5 comments:

  1. ;-)
    Go Karen, Go Karen!
    You can do it!
    Go Karen!
    ;-)

    (word verification: unfizzon --> huh? lol!)

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  2. Karen-

    I'm so Proud of you! You can do it! I'm cheering for you! Remember "Start Fresh".

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  3. Good for you! I did the pedaller under my desk this morning--my first exercise in over a month! It's not the treadmill, but at least it's a start. You go, girl! And you keep going!

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  4. Karen,
    I appreciate your authenticity and honesty in these posts. Sometimes on my daily 'to-do' lists I write things I've ALREADY DONE, just to be able to cross them off!

    Writing your goal half the battle, you'll make it because you're being authentic.

    BTW, like you, I had the 21 mg/dl conscious. Lie: I despise(d) the Golden Girls!! LOL

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  5. Isn't it crazy how many different things our state of mind can affect? I mean, depression can screw everything up, big time!

    It is such a hard thing to claw up and out of. You can do it Karen - one little ladder step at a time. Focus on progress, not perfection!

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